I see out of my window, peeping. All I could see is the hot air blowing; called LOO in the local dialect. I look back at my computer whose GPU is groaning at me because of excess workload that it has to do these days following my absence from the college.
I throw a frustrated look at my study table and see the books piled up, ready to be studied. But the weather and the absolute ZERO inside my head, made me again fall back on the bed.
Again it is the exam time for the engineers. We have to study again desperately. But the only relaxing and soothing thing is that it is our last semester. The final time o study as of what is called the STUDYING PERIOD.
This semester was a lot different from the other semesters that we have had so far, to be precise 7 in number. We were allowed to bunk any number of classes, uptil now. But in this semester, only the SATAN knows what happened to our college management that the attendance was made compulsory with monetary penalty, and that too was quite high.
My personal record of attendance which was: always lower than 60% was broken in this semester. I too had to attend all the classes since 12th February till date. Never in my whole academic life, have I been regular for such a long duration without a single bunk or absence from the class. It was a real pain in the ass for me at least and surely for many others too.
I laid back after getting a good look at the LOO, and fearing the heat strokes. I tried to plan my studying schedule again but all in vain. I kept thinking that we have been the most regular in the college and still we know the least, when syllabus is compared. Since my first semester, we attended least classes and studied on our own when the exams approached. Our conscious became so guilt-filled that we had to study and got well prepared before the exam time.
But now, in this semester, we continuously attended a hell lot of classes and our teachers taught us with a hell lot of patience and time. Still, not a single student knows anything.
We sat in the classes everyday with half closed eyes.. eye-lids batting half way down the way and brain cells in an OFF position and we returned all exhausted. There was a feeling everyday while returning “Today we studied a lot.” But, actually all were nil.
The whole semester has passed and now when the exam time is right at hand. The gongs are blowing just above the ear-level; I am tensed about what will happen in these final semester exams…
I keep staring at the ceiling in a dazed horror of exams. May be I am getting a kinda exam phobic.
And watching the movie of previous 3 years in the college inside my neural canvas, I again slept, as usual.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Dating 16 Years..!!!
10th April ’09: Today I took a day off from the college and didn’t go. The last 2 months were extremely hectic due to the college. We had to go everyday else were fined monetarily. So, today I got ill, to have a holiday and rest. All my life I have never been so regular for 2 months, without taking a day off.
I got up at 7 am, because of everyday’s habit of going college, when we have to rush out latest by 8am. Then realizing that I am not going college today I again slept at 8. After that I got up 11. Hmm… pretty long time since I have had such a nice and sound sleep.
I got up, pinched myself; Yeah.. I really was in my bed away from the college. Holy Heavens, I was so happy.
Then, I did all the stuffs including the breakfast till 12 noon.
After that I sat wondering what to do? Had nothing to do. So, I got up and cleaned my study table and scheduled my studies as our finals start from 5th May.
Then, I lied down planning what to do next.
I was planning my schedule and then I noticed that only a little of college life is left.
The time to transit from the student age to a grown up has arrived.
I recall my days when we had to leave our school life and enter into the college phase. I was so sad, then. But there was an assurance that we shall all meet at least every 2 or 3 months when we go home in our holidays. But, now the conditions are different.
I recall all those days with Rohit, Prashant, Pankaj, Harsh, Anshul, Saksham, Priyank, Ankit, Siddharth, Sanyam, Gaurav, Nikhil, Gurkeerat, Anant, Shubham, Naveen and a hell lot of others. The entire nuisance that we used to make, all the fun that we had during our school time. But then we all separated.
But we continued our bond in the time when we went home in our vacations every 2-3 months. We talked on phone and did everything. The time during the college was also soothing. We met every couple of months and did all fun. Even more that what we did during school days. We were easy in touch and continued our bondage well.
It was a lot easy for me to bunk my college for a couple of days and board a bus to Lucknow to meet Rohit.
It was too easy to extend my vacations just to hang out with Pankaj or Prashant for a few more days in Saharanpur.
I miss our long long drives till the notch of Dehradun in the evening with Saksham.
I miss the late night treats at Chandralok and Meridian by Shishir Bhaiya that Gurkeerat and I always forced Bhaiya for.
I miss going to Hot-Breads with Nikhil every day after our P.K.Bansal Sir’s classes.
The long long walks with Anant into the deep down unexplored areas of Taharpur.
I miss my trip to the river-side by the canal with Pankaj and the photo-sessions that we had there. The trips to Chuneti to our school in the night having a packet of Chips with Anshul, Siddhharth & Pankaj.
I miss the Bluff sessions at Harsh’s place.
I miss the strolling with Priyank in Mission Compound.
The late night walks with Sidhharth through out the roads of Avas Vikas.
I miss the time that I spent at Rohit’s place all day long discussing about our Important Stuffs.
But now the big transition phase has arrived.
Our B.Tech is ending. We shall go to different parts of the country or may be the globe. No one knows the destiny of any one. We shall be physically parted away. Now, we won’t be able to meet as frequently as we have done uptil now.
After we all start our respective jobs or post-graduations, it might turn into years or a little more or less to see each other.
In the evening I was talking with a batch mate and we were discussing the ending college days. The other person was too sad that I myself went into a deep thinking.
Well, I don’t have any attachments with my college nor do I have any one great whom I would miss. But, I am thinking about all my dear friends since my school days, who have always stood by me in all the ups and downs of the life uptil now.
I never really had thought that a stage would come that I would be missing my friends so terribly. But this was my mental situation today. I kept thinking this all day long and am still in state of dilemma about this.
Our such loving days spent with friends will never return. Gone are those wonderful days. Gone with the Wind. But we will always cherish those amazing days in our souls.
I got up at 7 am, because of everyday’s habit of going college, when we have to rush out latest by 8am. Then realizing that I am not going college today I again slept at 8. After that I got up 11. Hmm… pretty long time since I have had such a nice and sound sleep.
I got up, pinched myself; Yeah.. I really was in my bed away from the college. Holy Heavens, I was so happy.
Then, I did all the stuffs including the breakfast till 12 noon.
After that I sat wondering what to do? Had nothing to do. So, I got up and cleaned my study table and scheduled my studies as our finals start from 5th May.
Then, I lied down planning what to do next.
I was planning my schedule and then I noticed that only a little of college life is left.
The time to transit from the student age to a grown up has arrived.
I recall my days when we had to leave our school life and enter into the college phase. I was so sad, then. But there was an assurance that we shall all meet at least every 2 or 3 months when we go home in our holidays. But, now the conditions are different.
I recall all those days with Rohit, Prashant, Pankaj, Harsh, Anshul, Saksham, Priyank, Ankit, Siddharth, Sanyam, Gaurav, Nikhil, Gurkeerat, Anant, Shubham, Naveen and a hell lot of others. The entire nuisance that we used to make, all the fun that we had during our school time. But then we all separated.
But we continued our bond in the time when we went home in our vacations every 2-3 months. We talked on phone and did everything. The time during the college was also soothing. We met every couple of months and did all fun. Even more that what we did during school days. We were easy in touch and continued our bondage well.
It was a lot easy for me to bunk my college for a couple of days and board a bus to Lucknow to meet Rohit.
It was too easy to extend my vacations just to hang out with Pankaj or Prashant for a few more days in Saharanpur.
I miss our long long drives till the notch of Dehradun in the evening with Saksham.
I miss the late night treats at Chandralok and Meridian by Shishir Bhaiya that Gurkeerat and I always forced Bhaiya for.
I miss going to Hot-Breads with Nikhil every day after our P.K.Bansal Sir’s classes.
The long long walks with Anant into the deep down unexplored areas of Taharpur.
I miss my trip to the river-side by the canal with Pankaj and the photo-sessions that we had there. The trips to Chuneti to our school in the night having a packet of Chips with Anshul, Siddhharth & Pankaj.
I miss the Bluff sessions at Harsh’s place.
I miss the strolling with Priyank in Mission Compound.
The late night walks with Sidhharth through out the roads of Avas Vikas.
I miss the time that I spent at Rohit’s place all day long discussing about our Important Stuffs.
But now the big transition phase has arrived.
Our B.Tech is ending. We shall go to different parts of the country or may be the globe. No one knows the destiny of any one. We shall be physically parted away. Now, we won’t be able to meet as frequently as we have done uptil now.
After we all start our respective jobs or post-graduations, it might turn into years or a little more or less to see each other.
In the evening I was talking with a batch mate and we were discussing the ending college days. The other person was too sad that I myself went into a deep thinking.
Well, I don’t have any attachments with my college nor do I have any one great whom I would miss. But, I am thinking about all my dear friends since my school days, who have always stood by me in all the ups and downs of the life uptil now.
I never really had thought that a stage would come that I would be missing my friends so terribly. But this was my mental situation today. I kept thinking this all day long and am still in state of dilemma about this.
Our such loving days spent with friends will never return. Gone are those wonderful days. Gone with the Wind. But we will always cherish those amazing days in our souls.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Over grown babies…!!
20th March ’09: I’m sitting in my classroom waiting for the bell to ring and the first lecture to start. At 9:30, the bell rang and the teacher entered the class. Suddenly, I felt a sting inside my head followed by a severe head-ache. I put my head down and when the teacher asked me what it was, I replied that I wasn’t feeling well. A classmate touches my hand and says that I have a terrible fever too. I sat silently in the class for 2 lectures. After the second lecture the CSE co-coordinator asked me to go back because of my fever.
I came back to my room at 12 noon. Feeling unwell, I slept after having some medicine. I kept sleeping for 2 hours, when my project partner calls me at 2, whether we should work on our project that day or not.
I got up. Feeling a little refreshed, I asked him to come and we started working on our project. We worked on Microsoft IDE for around 3 hours. At 5, he left.
Immediately then, the electricity went off due to a power failure. I cursed the KESCO. India is working well in all departments except improving its infrastructure.
Then, trying to grasp some fresh air, I asked my room partner Priyank to accompany me for a walk. The weather was a little cool due to the over cast clouds.
We walked in the neighbourhood for around half an hour. After that, I again saw that the electricity is still not back. I again cursed the KESCO.
Then, the two of us sat in the park near our flat. There was quite a happening season inside the park. There were a few boys playing cricket and 2 small girls playing on the swings. There were few other elderly people out for their evening walk.
We two sat on a bench chatting watching the kids playing on the swing and he guys’ cricket.
Suddenly, my attention was diverted towards those 2 kids. Those two girls were around 7-8 years of age. One was dressed in blue and the other was in pink.
The girl in pink was a lot cuter than the other one. (Plump, what do I mean by this..!!!)
The girls started to fight among themselves. The fight was in English. (Huh.. Schools are forcing kids to over grow, out of them. )
“Hey, let’s go that swing”, the girl in blue said.
“No, I won’t come”, the kid in pink replied.
“Come, na!”
“No, I won’t.”
“Fine, I’m going.”
“Ok, go!”
“Don’t talk to me.”
Seeing this kid- fight between those two girls, the guys who were playing around started to tease the girl in blue.
She got irritated and said, “I can’t see you people.”
“But, we can see you fighting with your friend”, said one f the guys trying to be over smart with the small kid.
Immediately then, the girl in pink came to the rescue of her friend. She came by the girl in blue, and looked at the boys.
“I am so sexy. See me.”, yelled the girl in pink, at the boys and walked out of the park with her friend.
Everyone was stunned. The guys, the elderly people walking in the park, the women roaming and chatting about their households, and the two of us, all were awe struck.
Everybody walked that small girl in pink walking away with her friend out of the park.
The people, who were thinking those girls to be small kids, were now shut blunt by a girl of 7-8 years of age.
I stared to think what struck the girl’s mind to speak such a thing.
Does she even know the meaning of what she has shouted.???
I came back to my room at 12 noon. Feeling unwell, I slept after having some medicine. I kept sleeping for 2 hours, when my project partner calls me at 2, whether we should work on our project that day or not.
I got up. Feeling a little refreshed, I asked him to come and we started working on our project. We worked on Microsoft IDE for around 3 hours. At 5, he left.
Immediately then, the electricity went off due to a power failure. I cursed the KESCO. India is working well in all departments except improving its infrastructure.
Then, trying to grasp some fresh air, I asked my room partner Priyank to accompany me for a walk. The weather was a little cool due to the over cast clouds.
We walked in the neighbourhood for around half an hour. After that, I again saw that the electricity is still not back. I again cursed the KESCO.
Then, the two of us sat in the park near our flat. There was quite a happening season inside the park. There were a few boys playing cricket and 2 small girls playing on the swings. There were few other elderly people out for their evening walk.
We two sat on a bench chatting watching the kids playing on the swing and he guys’ cricket.
Suddenly, my attention was diverted towards those 2 kids. Those two girls were around 7-8 years of age. One was dressed in blue and the other was in pink.
The girl in pink was a lot cuter than the other one. (Plump, what do I mean by this..!!!)
The girls started to fight among themselves. The fight was in English. (Huh.. Schools are forcing kids to over grow, out of them. )
“Hey, let’s go that swing”, the girl in blue said.
“No, I won’t come”, the kid in pink replied.
“Come, na!”
“No, I won’t.”
“Fine, I’m going.”
“Ok, go!”
“Don’t talk to me.”
Seeing this kid- fight between those two girls, the guys who were playing around started to tease the girl in blue.
She got irritated and said, “I can’t see you people.”
“But, we can see you fighting with your friend”, said one f the guys trying to be over smart with the small kid.
Immediately then, the girl in pink came to the rescue of her friend. She came by the girl in blue, and looked at the boys.
“I am so sexy. See me.”, yelled the girl in pink, at the boys and walked out of the park with her friend.
Everyone was stunned. The guys, the elderly people walking in the park, the women roaming and chatting about their households, and the two of us, all were awe struck.
Everybody walked that small girl in pink walking away with her friend out of the park.
The people, who were thinking those girls to be small kids, were now shut blunt by a girl of 7-8 years of age.
I stared to think what struck the girl’s mind to speak such a thing.
Does she even know the meaning of what she has shouted.???
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